The girl whom I loved the most left me. (Edouard Leve in The Paris Review)

As translated from French by Paris Review editor Lorin Stein. This appeared online at the Paris Review. Though I am a subscriber I cannot remember if it was in print as well:

The girl whom I loved the most left me. At ten I cut my finger in a flour mill. At six I broke my nose getting hit by a car. At fifteen I skinned my hip and -elbow falling off a moped, I had decided to defy the street, riding with no hands, looking backward. I broke my thumb skiing, after flying ten meters and landing on my head, I got up and saw, as in a cartoon, circles of birthday candles turning in the air and then I fainted. I have not made love to the wife of a friend. I do not love the sound of a family on the train. I am uneasy in rooms with small windows. Sometimes I realize that what Iā€™m in the middle of saying is boring, so I just stop talking. Art that unfolds over time gives me less pleasure than art that stops it. Even if it is an odd sort of present, I thank my father and mother for having given me life.

Edouard Leve committed suicide in 2007 days after handing the manuscript for his novel called Suicide.

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